A simple womans day book

Outside my window...
Its really, really HOT!

I am thinking...
about finishing up some of my to do list so I can get back to watching my true blood shows.

I am thankful for...
the 9 wonderful (and challenging) years with my youngest. He will be 10 on the 10th. LOL

Adventures in homeschooling...
The kids have been putting out some half ass work and we have put a stop to it.

New creations from the kitchen...
I want to make a new recipe I found called egg cups. Maybe I can get to it this week.

I am creating...
A pinata for my youngests party

I am going...
crazy, as usual

I am reading...
Dead until Dark

I am hoping...
For a good week. Not having to get on to the kids too much, relaxing, and completing all my tasks.

Around my house...
The kiddos are in thier rooms stradily working on their lessons

One of my favorite things...
the quiet time

A few plans for the rest of the week...
Complete the menu and grocery list. Work on the Organizing Life as Mom Ebooks, Make a pinata, try a new recipe, complete my to do list, exercise at least 3 times this week, lose at least 1 pound this week, be calm and patient. And have a great birthday party for my baby boy.

weight loss progress

I weighted in this morning and lost another 1.8 pounds. Yeah! I am soooo excited! I so can't believe it. I am less than 3 pounds from my 10% goal (30 pounds) The weight is coming off slow but at least its coming off. And I am sooooo grateful for that! I have noticed that I can walk further and longer without my feet hurting so bad. And if I don't eat enough fruit or veg my body complains. We are so stocked up on fruit right now. My dad bought us a huge watermelon and 2 cantelopes, then our neighbor brought us 2 more cantelopes from her garden. Sweet.
I also noticed that I started my period 2 weeks early. Which, crossing fingers, might be a good thing. Not for everyone but for me. I have had issues with my periods for a few years now. I would start and wouldnt stop until I ended up in the hospital getting pumped full of blood cause I was a view pints low. (3 or 4) Not a good feeling. Well, after it was starting for the third time, and I finally had insurance, I found a doctor(a friends dad) that knew right away what was wrong with me. He started me on some pills. I take 1 the first 10 days of everymonth to make sure I have a normal period. This month I started 2 weeks early. I am hoping, really hard, that I stop normally then start up again in 2 weeks. That would mean my body is working normally. Hell Yeah! I would be so happy if that happens. I believe its cause I've been exercising and losing weight. But thats just my theory.
Anyways, that may be TMI but I am an open and honest person. At least I try to be. I never had anyone to tell me about life or female things, nothing like that. I have been figureing it our all on my own for many, many years now. So, I guess I share too much sometimes but its kinda my way of helping other people who dont share as much or dont know as much.
Oh well, thats me. Love me or leave me! LOL

I won

I won a upcycled shoulder bag from Holsom Heart Designs! from the Link Fairy site. It is the first thing I've ever one! I am soooooo excited! I can't wait for it arrive!

Family Time

Spent the day with my family. I am always with my family but we had an outing. We ate lunch at Arby's for $10(i has coupons for .64 cent roast beef sandwiches), then we drove to Duncan and spent the day in Duncan. It was a blast. We found 2 free admission museums. Toured them and drover around checking out Duncan. We all had a great time. I love spending time with my family. Its good that I can still do that considering my boys are 9 & 13 and will eventually not wanna spend time with me or their daddy.

weight loss progress

Well, I have fallen off track...agian. I gain .4 pounds the last 2 weeks. Partly me and partly cause I wasn't feeling well. My fault cause I made bad choices. When I'm weak I don't make good choices.
I am gonna work really hard to get back on track this week. I don't know if I'll hit my goal of weighting 278 by the end of the month but I'm gonna try to get as close as possible. I'm staying positive!

Life Update

I haven't had a chance to post since I was in a mood. But, life has improved again. We do have someone who actually cares. We were able to get a 2003 expedition with about 110,000 miles. In good condition. We love it. Its big, but sooooo nice. Didnt think I'd like something that big and didn't think I could drive it very well. But its wonderful so far. Were gonna making payments on it for about 18 months.
The goddess really does look out for us.

Blessed Be!

Life Sucks

I dont give a flying fuck anymore! No one cares about me or my family why should I care about anyone or anything. I am soooo tired of being nice and trying to be positive when life fucking sucks. The only good thing is that I have a loving husband and kids. The world sucks! I hate people! No one care about anyone anymore.
Why can't we have one fucking good thing happen for us? Why? No one can answer that cause noone gives a flying fuck! Well I'm sick and fucking tired of caring. I'm sick and fucking tired of trying. Fuck everyone!

Life can really suck sometimes

I haven't been sleeping well. Started takin Melatonin. Its ok. But I have a stiff neck and now my lower back is hurting. Last night I was having pains in my hips and knee. Stayed up unil 2am cause I couldnt get sleepy. Then slept until nearly 11am this morning. Not a great start to the day.
On top of that we have a huge electric bill $173 for this month. Paying that is really putting a strain on us. I had to carefully plan the menu and spend as little as possible on groceries for the week cause wonderful DHS decided to fuck with the food stamps and we wont get ours until the 10th of each month now.
And now our fucking piece of shit car started acting up. Hubby thought it was the injector or a plug fouling out. But now after talking to someone at work he thinks its the piston rings (?) or something like that, but basically the damn engine is shot! GREAT! Another fucking vehicle that only lasted 6 fuckin months before blowin up! How many more times are we gonna have to get vehicles that do this?
Hubby is trying to get financed or a loan. But we don't have the best credit. And no money for a down. This fucking sucks!

I don't know how much more I can take!!!

new clothes

My wonderful hubby bought me a new outfit today cause my clothes aren't fitting anymore. I have been fighting him on it for while and finally gave in. I got a regular outfit and 2 new items to sleep in. A silky gown that makes me appear slimmer and a shorts and tank top set as well. They are so comfortable. And it feels amazing to have some capris that aren't fallin off me or a shirt that swallows me. Yea!
Of course he made me model for the camera. But this is the only outfit I will post pics of. LOL. The others are bedroom attire. He he he.

weekly weight in

Well, I weighted in this morning and have lost 3.7 pounds!!! OMG!
Grand total of 24.2 so far! I am sooooo excited about it! just can't believe it!
I love it!

But at the same time can't be overly excited around one friend. Which sucks. See she did the WW program several years before when she was still married and didn't lose much and had no support from her husband. She started the WW program around Christmas (2010) and then her family(her mom,dad, sister & brother-in-law) joined right after the new year. I didn't know she was doing the program at first. Well, her family has been losing weight big time. They didn't have a whole lot to lose but her brother in law has lost abut 50 pounds so far and the rest of her family is almost to goal weight. Well, I started looking into WW around March. I tried a meeting and so didn't like the person running it. But was looking into the online. So I asked my friend about it and thats when she told me was doing the program again. So, she answered a lot of questions for me and I ended up signing up. I've been doing really well. Changed our diet, started exercising, etc.
Well, about a month or so ago I realized I was doing all the work myself and only using the online tool to count my points. Not much else. And didn't want to pay $40 a month for that. So I stopped paying it but continued the lifestyle. It was rough at first but its so working without paying $40 a month. Anyways, I watch what I eat and cook most of our meals at home. I also exercise 2-3 times a week. Not for too long, about 15-20 average. an't handle too much right now.
Well, my friend started going to the gym and then a few weeks ago started going to zumba classes. She says shes workin her butt off. And she says she barely eats.
But she has barly lost 7 pounds since she started back in December. She thinks she has something wrong with her and wants to see a doctor. But I think the exercise shes doing isn't enough. (or too much) If her body is use to it, its not helping much, except to maintain.
And her eatting habits aren't great. Eatting a little of something that isn't great for you is fine, on occassion, not daily. And her diet sodas dont help.
But everytime I try to tell her I lost weight she doen't seem that happy. She seems kinda pissy. I know shes frustrated by how little shes lost, and I have given her support even when she lost .2 (been there) but I've lost 24 pounds. Thats huge for me. Never ever happened before. Shouldn't she as a "friend" be happy for me? Why should I have to hold down my excitment and not share my good news cause it will upset her. Its not fair for either of us. I wish I could help her understand why she hasn't lost. I wish I could help her see what she's eattin but she just won't hear it. She's been doing the WW program longer than I have and knows more.
Whats the right thing to do?

Anyways, I have a goal of weighting 275 by my birthday(August 19th), which is 10% of my body weight from start (30lbs).

Its possible if I keep with it!

Weight loss

I have changed my weight in day cause Saturday morning just aren't working anymore. To much can happen on Friday nights to mess up the weight in. So I have had my first Friday weight in. And I am proud of it! I have lost 1.8 pounds this week. Woo Hoo!
Grand total since starting the end of March is.........20.3 pounds and about 17 inches!!!

If I lose 1.3 pounds by next Friday I will hit my goal for the month!

I am so proud to announce my weight as of today is 283.3...I know that is a high number and to some people they would be in shock and imbarressed and even disgusted by me. But I am proud! I am proud cause a few months ago I started out at 304 pounds! So the fact that I have lost over 20 pounds so far is amazing to me. I wasn't ever able to do it before. Partly cause of me and partly cause of lack of knowledge. I am imbarressed that due to lack of kowledge and will power I allowed myself to get that big. That is the only thing I am imbarressed about.
I may still look disgusting to people but I don't care. Its my body. And they don't have to look. My kids love me and my husband still finds me attractive and loves me so thats all that matters.

The only down side to the weight loss right now is am a bit extra jiggly. You can tell where the fat is leaving my bosy. A little in my waist, my upper arms are really jiggly, some under my arms is jiggly and my ass shakes like jello now. It didn't use to do that. My legs are still pretty solid though. Not much out of the calfs or thighs yet. My face is thinner though. And I look younger(thats a plus) I'm not old but for a woman to look young is awesome! LOL.

Anyways...
My goal for next month is to weight 278 (or less)
And my goal by my birthday, which is August 19th, is to weight 275. I believe its possible. That's only 1 pound a week. As long as I get close to that goal I will be happy.

dinner

I tried a new recipe tonight.Creamy Marsala Meatballs & pasta with steamed veggies. It came out really nice. It smelled really good. But I had to send hubby an errand up to Walmart. Which is like 2 minutes away. He was just gonna meet someone there to pick up an item I was purchasing from Sillbookoo. Well, just as the person shows theres an asccident right in front of him. So, he stays, helps out and waits to give the cops his info. Such a good guy!
But dinner didn't survive. After being reheated a few times its done for.

Little disappointed.

Litha

Today I spent the day with my family, took the boys to Braums, visited my favorite Pagan shop, kids made sun catchers, I made No-Bake Fairy cakes and did a family Litha Ritual.
It was really nice.
It wasthe first family ritual I've done in a while. We always have a family alter up and I always have a personal one in my room. I have tried family rituals before but the kids were younger and not as into it. But this time they payed attention, did what they were told, interacted when needed and really enjoyed themselves. Even my youngest said he really, really liked it and wanted to do more. He seems like its something he really connects with. But I did notice when we tried to do the ritual in the family room where the family alter is it didn't feel right. There was way to much energy in there and didn't feel calm enough. So we did the ritual in my room where my personal atler is. It felt slightly cramped, but a lot better.
Now it just makes me want to set up a place to do family rituals where it feels right. I hope I will be doing this again. Its been too long.

Today 6/20/11

I have stopped paying for the weight watchers program this month. I haven't stopped the program. But I never really looked at it as a program. I never looked at it as a diet either. Its a life style. As long as I eat right, portion my food and exercise i'm good.
I haven't been doing that though. I lost .6 then gained .2. I didn't even weight in Saturday cause I had such a bad week and couldn't work out I didn't want to see a number going up. I havealso changed my weight in day. It was Saturday mornings, but sometimes hubby likes to have pizza Friday nights and wants to order one. That is soooo not good for me. And Friday night feels like a I don't wanna cook kinda night. So instead of sabtaging my self Friday night and weighting in Saturday I am just gonna weight in Friday mornings. Before the weekend cookouts and such. Hopefully this will work. We'll see Friday when I weight in. LOL.
I am at least working out this week, so ar. I did a great workout today. 20 minutes and I was sweating my ass off. It was amazing.
I'm also eatting fruit this week. So hopefully my body will react well.
Being in a inbetween size clothes really sucks. I can get into an 18 in capris but some brands are a little snug. Plus I still have my hips and thighs. My waist has gone down and so has my upper body. Boobs are still good. They have gone down a bit but they won't go down too much. I have always had big boobs. My shirt size has dropped but only being down 1 size in capris I don't wanna go out and buy new ones yet.
Losing weight has its advntages and disadvantages.

A simple womans day book

Outside my window...
Its dark. Its pretty late too.

I am thinking...
I should have been relaxing and windng down for bed long before now. I hope I can sleep tonight.

I am thankful...
I was able to see the chiropractor last week and get aligned. I soooo needed it.

Adventures in homeschooling...
I gave the kids the week off to relax and so I could work on lessons. They needed a little revamping. I just wish I had a book & DVD bak that I loaned out. It would be useful with te lesson planning.

New creations from the kitchen...
I made a chicken n dumplings in the crockpot tonight. I used the crockpot recipe and my own combined and it actually came out really, really good. Everyone LOVED it!

I am going...
To bed soon

I am reading...
I am still reading the last of the vamp academy series book. I just can't stop long enough to get any good reading time in.

I am hoping...
I have a good week. I am able to exercise everyday and lose some weight this week, even 1 pound would be wondeful!

Around my house...
Hubby is snoozing. He has to work in the morning. Youngest is also in bed. He has a strick 9:30 bed time during the week. School or not. And eldest is playing a video game in his room. If I stay up, so does he. I like the company.

One of my favorite things...
Staying up after everyones gone to bed. Its so quiet.

A few plans for the rest of the week...
Finish the lessons. Hopefully be able to plan for a yard sale this weekend. Exercise. Lose some weight. Sleep well. Have patience. Relax. Be happy. And get my friend to answer my texts so I can get my book and DVD back!

OMG moment

I had an OMG moment today. I have spent years trying not to be like anyone on my mom's side of the family.
(Real quick version of my childhood-Parents split up when I was almost 6, mom was murdered when I was 6, dad tried to raise but didn't know how & was an alcoholic so I was send to live with my moms youngest sister & her family. Her 2 boys mulested me & she beat any chance she got, as well as put me down & called me names. Then I was sent to live with my moms other sister & her husband raped me for months. At the age of 15 I went back to live with my dad & pretty much took care of myself from then on.)
So, anyways, I have been fighting for years and years not to repeat the learned behavior from my mom's side of the family. It has been a hige struggle and still is. But, today I realized its not only my mom's side of the family but my dad as well. I act just like him. Growing up I always wanted to be like him, but now seeing myself act like him I am very upset with myself. I have a quick temper. I yell first then appoligize. OMG, my dad does the same thing. This is NOT something I was to do. Not a way I want to act. I can't believe I didn't see that before.
I hope I have the strenght to change this!

A simple womans day book

Outside My Window:
It sure looks Hot.

I am thinking:
I am planning out my day in my head

I am thankful for:
My family

Adventures in Homeschooling:
The boys are learning about France this week. They are counting to 10 in French & building the Effiel Tower.

New Creations from the Kitchen:
I have been on a eggs & bacon(turkey bacon) kick lately and don't know why.
For lunchthe boys ate homemade whole wheat bagel pizzas, with tomato sauce, turkey pepperoni & grated cheese.
For Dinner were having Tex Mex Casserole. It's a yummy meal I found on Philly Cooking Creams site using the newish product "Philly Cooking Creams". They are soooooo yummy!

I am creating:
I have a little list of things to create. A sign for the dish washer that says if the dishes are clean or dirty(scrapbook style of course), a sign over the kids doors with their names in big scrapbookish letters, and I am working on the idea ofa mini office in the kids rooms above their desks so they can have more work space.
http://familyfun.go.com/crafts/homework-central-787551/

I am going:
To the grocery store today

I am reading:
Still trying to finish the last of the Vamp academy books

I am hoping:
That we will be ok finacially

Around my house:
Kids finished their after lunch chores and are back to lessons

A few plans for the rest of the week:
work out every day for the rest of the week, get some reading time in, and stay relaxed

Feelin better

Well, I have been feeling a lot better this week. I hope it continues.
The kids asked if they could have the week off "school" and I gave in. But next week were back to it.
I lost .4 this week. Not too bad considering I didn't the best I could have. But at least its a loss.
Yeah! I am still losing. Wish it would pick back up though. I liked lossing a whole pound or 2. Less than half a pound is still a loss but it takes a few weeks to build up to a pound. Makes it more frustrating.

Anyways, lots to do. Busy, busy weekend.

Another Day

I'm doing a little better today. I'm still pretty depressed. I don't wanna see or talk to anyone right now. I just want to be alone. I don't know how I'm gonna pull that of with hubby having a 3 day weekend starting tomorrow. But I guess I'll muster through it. We'll probably end up fighting. O well. Shit happens. Maybe I'll finally push it too far.
We'll see!

Bad Day

I hate myself, my life and everything about me! I can't even function right now. I want to just explode. But instead Im just crying. I dont know why. I hate this. I want help and dont know where or how to get it.
Why am I here? Why do I have to go through this? Why do I have to suffer like this?
Why couldn't I just have a good childhood with good parents, people who love me and who would show me how to do things in life. How do deal with life. Its sooo damn hard trying to figure it all out on my own. With absolutely no help from anyone.
I dought anyone would miss me if I wasnt here.

Strugglin

I am stugglin to keep my head above water right now. I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. I'm being drug under and can't stop it.
I have been fighting some depression, again. I don't know how to shake this. I hate feeling like this. I feel worthless. I hate myself and my life. I hate feeling like that even more. This totally sucks.
This isnt the first time I've felt this way either. I have little spells of this off and on. Usually its a matter of a vitamin deficiency, but I'm on a multivitamin now and thats been working for a while. But my body has a way of getting use to things and I think thats what where I've hit again.
Why can't I just be happy? Why can't I just be a happy person? I hate this!
I don't know how to fix it or make it better either. I wish I did.
I wish I had help!

Grillin

We usually grill every Saturday, weather permitting. I have been runnng the grill for a while now. Hubby got a propne gril for his bday so he ran the grill last week end and this weekend. OMG! All the man does it bitch. It drives me crazy. All I want is to grill in peace. Enjoy some nice family time, relax and develop some good family memories for my kids.

But all he does is bitch, bitch, bitch. Of course this puts me a bitchy mood.
Today I wanted the boys to do a lttle grillin. As a kid, when I camped I loved to grill hot dogs over a campfire. So we used the charcoal grill for safety and set a small fire in it and let the kids grill. All they did was complain.
With hubby already putting me in a bad mood I am not taking the kids reaction to well.

UGH!

Whats going on with me

I lost 4 freakin pounds last week. How the hell did I manage that. For some strange reason the less I workout the more I lose. Its the weirdest thing. I just hope I can pull a good number this week. Who knows.
It feels so wird to have lost 15 pounds already. I didn't think it was possible. But it is!

I have been working on 6 weeks of lessons for the kids all week. I just never seem to have enough time to finish them one week at a time. I've got almost all done except I added in a scouts section.
The boys aren't official yet but they are joining scouts, again. I just hope it goes better this time. I'm not in the mood for politics and BS. And the Boy scout leaders better watch out. I will not put up with them putting ideas in my oldests head. Some of the leaders from before were saying things like they are men and can teach my so things I can't cause I'm a woman. WTF! We are a close family and I am a very invovled parent. I'm not a hoovering kind of mom, I just want to be apart of my kids life. Be there to encourage them and see what they accmplish and such.
So, John(oldest) will be joining a troop with 2 of his friends and Eric (youngest) will hopefully be joining a pack close to us. I hoping he won't be in 107. The leader of 17 has some issues. We go back. We worked together on Day Camp and such and we had issues after a while. He's an ass. And he has a problem with my religious necklace. I refuse to hide my religion! So I just don't want to go into that drama.

Anyways, the boys are doing good with school. They are still enjoying it.
They are doing ok on their execising. John just wont gain any weight. And Eric will. John is super skinny and needs to work on his muscles. Eric needs to drop about 13 pounds. He has man boobs. And that ain't good. I started Eric on EA Active so he can get some good workouts in. Hopefully combining that with teaching him portion control it will help.

I guess that all thats going on for now.

Peace Out!

A simple womans day book

Outside my window:
It looks like a bright sunny day. But its only suppose to be in the 70's. We'll see how warm it is when I go outside later.

I am thinking:
About everything I have to ge done. have to weight in, make copies for the kids lessons, finish their lesson, work on the menu & grocery list,go to the library, go to the grocery sor & dow to my dads.

I am thankful for:
a loving supportive husband

Adventures in homeschooling:
We took the week off so I could work on lessons. I ran out of time to do their lessons for this week so we had a "fun week" and I did 6 weeks worth of lessons. They are almost done. Just one subject that was recently added needs to be done, but I can't really do it until Monday evening. I don't like leaving things incomplete.

New creations from the kitchen:
We have still been experimenting with new recipes. Most have been really, really good! This week we have had tex mex casserole, creamy fajitas and creamy green spaghetti. All were a huge hit with the whole family!

I am going:
Crazy....o wait I'm already there

I am reading:
Mastering your metabolisum by Jillian Micheals...

I am hoping:
To be able to lose some weight at my weight in today and complete my to do list with out stress!
(I'm dreamin BIG!) LOL

Around my house: my youngest is watching TV in his room. Oldest is studying his Tenderfoot requirements for BoyScouts.He should have a board of review Tuesday.

One of my favorite things:
A quiet house in the morning

A few plans forthe rest of the week:
The kids will be doing school all week and attending scout meetings.

5 % Weight loss

I have now hit my first 5%. For me that was 15 pounds. I have actually lost 15.2! Wow! I have never lost weight like that before, ever! Its amazing. I feel great! There are still things I'm working on. I am still 289 pounds. Which is a lot! But 15 pounds lost is a lot too. None of my clothes fit right anymore, but I'm cool with it. I did just buy them in Feb. but o well. I am sill working on relaxing more, which has always been a problem for me. But also the exercising. I jumped into this program ready to go. I changed the food and the way my whole family eats, and even started exercising. Daily and a lot. But the more I exercise the less I lose. The less I exercise the more I lose. And yea I said that right. Its so weird. I don't unserstand it. I worked out like one day this week. Monday. And I lost 4 pounds! I was amazed. I really enjoy working out though. But I guess I need to do it less. And maybe not stress myself out over it sooo much.

5/4/11

Well, we found our car. Apparently the theif stole it, took the stereo, speakers, sub and amp out it then trashed it. They punched the dash board and ripped off the rear view mirror. Then they put a brick on the gas pedal and ran it into a field. It went under a barbwire fence before hitting a tree. Its pretty banged up. Were just gonna sell it. we had to pay for the tow bill though to get it released. $166.
I'm just so discusted over the whole thing.

What a day!

After dinner we decided to go to the Game stop in the mall and let our oldest son spend his $15. It was normal. We were in there about 20 minutes. Maybe 30. We came out and our car was gone! I don't mean we forgot where we parked, I mean someone fucking stole our car!
Its a 91 Ford Probe! Come on! A 91 Ford Probe! WTF! It wasn't a super nice fancy expensive car. Its only worth anything to us! Who in the hell would steal a Ford Probe!
Husband is more pissed than I am. It was his car. We bought seat covers, sticker decals, a stereo(not a very expensive one), speakers, sub, amp, rear view mirrow with skulls. We decked it out just for him. Most of it didn't cost a lot. Its all low end shit. (We dont have much money) And we only gave $2000 for the car it self.
Why the hell would someone just steal our car! I just don't understand that.
We have had shit stolen from us 4 times since living here! 4 fucking times! First was all of our bikes except my youngests(cause his was tiny at the time).
Second was when I had an older oldsmobile car and left it unlocked. Some kids came by at night and stole my change, camera and stuffed dog out the car.
Third was about 2 years ago. We went on vacation and came home our house being robbed. It happened on the day we were returning too. They stole cigs, hubbys Xbox 360, hubbys show knives, etc.
Now number four, our fucking car!
What the hell is wrong with this fucking town. When we lived in Ft.Worth we never got robbed like this. I just don't understand it. We can't afford to replace these things. WE work very hard for what we have. Why are there little punk ass people out there that steal?
I just don't understand it!

A simple womans day book

So, I started my 5th week this past Saturday. I'm feeling great. Love the new foods and really loving the exercise. I've lost 8.2 pounds and several inches so far. I was told not to measure myself but once a month. And I really only took 3 measurements when I did the measurements to begin with. My chest, waist and arms.
Well, I've noticed some changes in my body. Curving in on my legs where it use to go straight. More jiggliness. I've jiggled before but it seems more jiggly now. I don't know if that means I've lost some of the fat in that area and theres not enough to fill the skin thats left ot what. I've also noticed some fat loss in my face, which I love.
I wish I knew more about all this weight loss and what it does to your body. Weight Watchers it great as far as recipes and keeping me on track, but they lack scientific information and knowledge. I can't afford to run to the doctor all the time for these questions with a $1000 deductable and a $20 co pay. Besides I don't really have a primary just an OB/GYN.
Why is this knowledge that should be so common, know one really knows?
Why is it that people don't know what healthy means?

A simple womans Day book

Outside my window....
Its a beautiful day
I am thinking...
About my mile long to do list...
I am thankful for...
Having a wonderful husband and kids
Adventures in homeschooling...
We are having a fun week. A fun week in our house basically means no formal learning(book work), but tons of computer and game time. Its time we can all take a break, relax and unwind.
New creations from the kitchen...
We are having healthy whole wheat soft tacos, fat free refried beans and brown spanish rice for dinner. Yummy! Who knew eatting healthy could taste soooo good!
I am creating...
This week I am suppose to make a sand covered bottle art thing for my dad(for his b-day) and a scrapbook type birthday card. The kids are suppose to be makeing Easter cards and doing Easter crafts. Its half way through Tuesday and we're not even started. 'sigh'
I am going...
To run more errands tonight. At least I will be walking. And on Thursday we're suppose to take the kids to the zoo!
I am reading...
Last Sacrifice and my Womens Healthy magazine
I am hoping...
My head stops hurting and I can accomplish something today
Around my house...
Little bit is watching TV and John is playing on the Wii
A few plans for the rest of the week...
Complete my todo list, run some errands, sell some stuff, complete my dad's b-day gift and card, do Easter crafts with the kids, take kids to the zoo, get their lessons done, make another menu and grocery list, get groceries on Saturday, plan an Easter egg scavenger hunt for my boys and visit my Dad on Sunday. Sometime in there I have to make sure I exercise enough and eat right. Which I'm already doing a crappy job of today.

A Simple Womans Day Book

Outside my window... Theres a wind storm going on. Its like the Wizard of Oz outside... I am thinking... About my weight in tomorrow I am thankful for... My wonderful loving husband From our classroom... The kids did a great job on their lessons this week with being sick and not being able to stay on top of it. From my life... OMG, I was sooo sick all week. Stomach was icky, nausteous, really tired and a headache. It was aweful. I don't know what it was. I am thankful I feel some better today. My dad called last night and said the VA scheduled him ANOTHER appointment at the VA hospital in the city. 'sigh' He lives in WF, drives up to here to Lawton, picks up me and my boys and we all go to the city with him. Its a long ass drive both ways and waiting isn't easy with an energetic 9 year old. I really don't mind most of the time, but it does get old. I want to be able to help my dad out, thats what family does, but I gotta rework everything, even the kids lessons when he needs me to go up there with him. I have to go with him cause he's not suppose to drive. Technically he don't have a license, but the VA says he shouldn't drive. But hes a stubborn man. And he has some relatives that live near him that use to drive him but they take advantage of him. So, that leaves me. From the Kitchen... For dinner we had a yummy healthy homemade pizza. So good. I am going... Hopefully no where this weekend. I'm just gonna take care of stuff at home and chill with my guys. I am reading... Last sacrifice, if I can ever stop long enough to read... I am hoping... That at weight in tomorrow I pull a good weight loss. I am hearing... the sounds of my hubby and eldest son returning form their trip to blockbuster. We're gonna watch little fockers!!!

New exercise equipment

I got some new exercise equipment yesturday. I got a stability ball, thight master(lol), a punching bag and gloves. I exercised with them last night and today so far. I love them all. I punched the shit out of the bag last night! lol. I was knocking my hubby back, he was holding the bag, and he is a big muscular guy. I am sweating my ass off on a daily basis and LOVING every minute of it!!!

Weight in

I can't believe I haven't posted about my awesome weight in yet! Ok. I lost 3 pounds last week. For a grand total so far of........4.6 pounds !!!!!!!!!!! Hell yea! O But wait, theres more....... I also lost inches!!!!!!!!! Yes I did. I lost 4 inches in my waist, 5 in my chest and 1 1/2 in my arms!!!! Can you believe it! I am sooooo excited. I have told everyone. Even strangers. lol. I told the person at CATO's. lol. It feels soooo good though!

A Simple Womans Day Book

Outside my window...birds are chirping, probably telling me to refill thier bird feeders. I am thinking...about my to do list I am thankful for...my family From our home...We took the week of lessons. We have tons to do this week and I didn't want to short the boys on their learning time. My oldest started rearranging his room yesturday and will hopefully finish today. My youngest is being extra annoying lately. I don't know why. And he wants his room rearranged now. Me, my oldest and my hubby worked on rearranging the family room last night. I love to rearrange. lol Hubby was way too tired to do a workout last night. We did take a short walk around the block though. I was dyin. My body was screaming at me from all the activity I did yesturday. I made another weight watchers dinner. Smothered porkchops. Everyone loved it! It took a little over an hour to cook the whikle thing, but I'm glad they liked it. By the end of the day, after an early dinner, a hard workout, a walk, and lots of physical exercise during the day, I got hungry. I was starving. I did have like 17 points left yesturday so I had an egg salad sandwich before bed. I couldn't help it. I stayed in my points. But if I didn't eat I would have woke up really hungry. From the kitchen...today I have planned oatmeal for breakfast, egg salad sandwiches for lunch and Pasta Primavera for dinner. With some yogurt for a snack if I hungry. I am wearing...my size 20 capris. Hopefully I will be able to say they are size 18 before too long. Then 16, 14, 12...... I am going... to take my dad to the city tomorrow. He has to have a test done at the VA hospital. Today I'm gonna get my hair cut. Yea! I love to get my hair cut!

A Mother’s Journal

In my life this week...... I had a crappy week! A majorly crappy week. Hubby took a half day and we did nothing but be lazy. We ate chinese food and watched movies all afternoon. I did workout before he got home though. Because of that day the next day was messed up too. I sat around and was lazy. I ate the wrong foods. I tried to eat a pizze from CiCi's and my belly so didnt like it. It made it come out. Never again! Then I got into an arguement with my hubby. He came home and said he was done with his job. He didn't feel like he was going anywhere there, he felt disrespected and was done with the people too. Great! I am a stay at home mom and we live pay check to pay check. I got a little freaked. We have been working up from nothing for the last several years. We moved here about 6 years ago with only what would fit in our van. We lived in a little one bedroom garage apartment, then in a bigger one bedroom apartment. But we made it work. Hubby was working at Walgreens at that time and wasn't paid very much. Then he got a job at a car dealership. We were able to move up. We got a small 2 bedroom. And now we are in a huge 3 bedroom with 2 living areas, eat in kitchen, extra room off the living room (we use as a game room), garage, huge yard. Its a rental and a very old one but its perfect for us. If he tries to change jobs it could be disasterous. He doesnt have a highschool diploma or GED right now and not a lot of different skills. He said he wanted to get away from working on cars. OMG! I freaked, we argued, I cried, then we made a plan that we could both be happy with. He's gonna work on getting his GED then we might look into taking some online classes. Since he is the only worked outside the home and we rely on his pay check he's limited on his choices. He could get a grant after he got his GED and take some college ot Votech classes but the grant only pays for day time classes. We can't afford night classes, unless me make plans to pay for them out of income tax. Anyways we got a plan and were working it. Kinda. I gotta get him to study for his GED. He hates "school" related stuff. He had bad PS experiences. But the rest of the week got better. I feel better and we have tons of errands to this weekend along with yard work, I gotta work on lessons, go grocery shopping, visit my dad and of course weight in. In our homeschool this week..... Lessons went pretty well this week. Kids completed everything. And my little one even took and passed a spelling test! Woo Hoo! Places we're goind and people we're seeing... Gonna visit my dad tomorrow. He says he wants to grill. My favorite things this week was..... Seeing my youngest take a spelling test and doing so well. What's working/not working for us... My youngest did jumping jacks to spell out his spelling words. This did wonders for him on his test. In my life what didn't work was me eatting crappy ass food! When will I ever learn to eat right. The crappy food always make me feel like shit!

A new day

I did a lot better today. I was a bit hungry and ate extra, but it was all good stuff. Nothing junk. Around 11:30 this morning I did my daily workout. It nearly killed me. But I pushed through it. All but the last few exercises. Afterwards I showered, I was dripping with sweat. Then I was starving. I had malt o meal for breakfast, which is filling, but the workout really sucked it out of me. I ate 2 peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. But the peanut butter was all natural peanut butter and the jelly was all fruit no sugar jelly. And the bread was whole wheat. But I was soooo hungry. In the afternoon I should have had a snack but I have such a hard time making myself snack. I feel that I am fat enough I don't need to snack too. But good healthy snacks are good for me. I just can't get that through to myself. LOL. Anyways, I fixed chicken fried rice, a recipe from the weight watchers getting started book. It was ok. My guys loved it. I even made extra so they could all have some for lunch tomorrow. They were thrilled. I only had 1 small serving, then a weight watchers yogurt. Then hubby did his evening workout and we sat down to watch a movie. I had bad popcorn during the movie. Not the healthy kind. Then I had a peanut butter craving and had a few town house crackers with peanut butter. I was so bad. I haven't gone over my weekly allowance points for the week, but I feel i have totally bombed this week and that sucks! But, I'm gonna push through it, suck it up and keep moving. I can do this and I am gonna do it!

Bad Week

I have been having a crappy week. It all started this weekend. The weather changed and I was unable to get outside like planned. I have been cooped up in the house for days. I had a goal set to be outside this weekend and ride my bike. But due to the weather, I haven't been able to much of anything. It has brought my energy level down too. I have felt pretty crappy the last few days. Yesturday hubby took a half day and we sat around all day watching movies. I did get my workout in though. But only one. Then today I woke up feeling pretty crappy and just sat around all day. On my EA active 2 I am set up on the 9 week program and today is my rest day but I had other exercises planned. But I felt so crappy I didn't do a damn thing. It got worse as the day went on. I got really hungry at lunch time and ate extra. Then I was feeling really crappy by later in the day and by the time hubby got home I had reached rock bottom. He went and got 2 deepdish pizzas from CiCi's. One for him and one for me. (Mine was alfredo pizza) It was lacking flavor so bad but I still just ate. Out of habit more than anything I think. But afterwards, OMG! I felt way worse than I had all day. My stomach was icky, I was weak and light headed. I tried soaking in a tub but it only helped a tiny bit. Eventually my pizza came right out. As soon as it did I felt tons better. How messed up is that. I can't ever let that happen again! I can't let myself get that low! I have to stay active no matter what. And I have to eat right. It does some fucked up things to my body if I don't. More changes to come. Gotta get this right!!!

weight in

Well, Hubby and I weighted on the Wii this morning. It said he lost 3.7 pounds. And I lost 2 pounds. The weight watchers scale said I lost 1.6 for the week. Yesturday the boys weighted in and Eric(youngest) lost 2.9, and John(oldest) lost 1.8. In 1 week. I was so proud of my guys! Not to bad for week one! Its a great start!

A Simple womans day book

Outside my window...

I see birds eatting from my bird feeder...
I am thinking...

About my workout and how crappy I feel right now...I'm hoping I can fight against my body, get off my lazy ass and use my new workout game I just bought.
I am thankful for...

For a supportive husband. We spent $40 on the EA Active 2 game bundle thing so I could work out. We have Wii fit plus but that things a joke. Its good for kids, not me. Now the game is mine and hubbys. He doing workouts with me. I love to see him sweat! hehehe
From our classroom...

The kids lessons are going well. This week instead of writing their assignment sheets every night I wrote them on Sunday. It was a huge weight lifted off me. I was able to cut down on the amount I have to do in prep. Some of their subjects they doing the same things so I just wrote one and copied it. ha. I do too much as it is. If I can cut down on some of it I'm all good!
From the kitchen...

Feed the guys raviolis with homemade sauce last night and a salad. They ate the hell out of it. Making the sauce from scratch cuts down on points and its better for us. I still counted out my 9 raviolis. They were big too. Fixed my salad with my ranch salad spritser. (Which we determined was 0 points) ha. And yummy. I enjoyed it all and was still had 9 points left after dinner. So, when we were at the mall we had some fat free frozen yogurt. I ate a small amount and still had points left at the end of the day! How awesome is that!

I jumped around on my lunches this week cause we had some left overs. Today I'm suppose to cook the turkey loaf thing. I dont want it. I gotta figure out what the hell I'm gonna have where I get full. Damn!
I am wearing...

Workout clothes in case I ever get my lazy ass up and work out today.
I am creating...

A new life style and better me!!!
I am going...

No where today...
I am reading...

I am attempting to read Bale fire if I can ever get some time to read it. I'm so tired when I go to bed at night I dont wanna stay up and read.
I am hoping...

I will not feel so crappy once I eat something
I am hearing...

nothing
Around the house...

my boys are still snoozing
One of my favorite things...

being a stay at home mom
A few plans for the rest of the week...

Start my new workout game thing, workout at least 2 times a day, and get up earlier in the mornings so I dont lay in bed and then feel crappy when I finally get up...gotta make the changes!!!

3/22/11

Yesturday was my 8 year anniversary. I can't believe I've been married 8 years now! It was a struggle at first. The first 5 years were the hardest. We fought a lot. Its really hard getting use to someone and living with them. But we love eachother enough. Several people didn't think we'd make it. But we have. We bet the odds. My hubby is 5 years younger than me. He was only 19 when we got together and I already had 2 kids. But he came into our lives and completed our family. He is my other half. He completed me just as he completes our family. He is my world.
Because we started the weight watchers we decided to cook dinner at home last night instead of going out. Of course sometimes plans change. Last night we hit a snag. It was a little bump in the road. We ended up needing to run some errands after he got off work so we got back home about 5:30 ish. Byt then hubby was getting hungry. I had a goal set in my mind. I wanted spaghetti for dinner. Homecooked. But I usually give into him, just as he does to me. Anytime one of us says were too tire to cook, we dont want whats planned for dinner or were craving something else the other one gives in and we we go out to eat. Well, last night he was saying he was hungry and wanted to go out so he could eat quicker. I was starting to give in. I was really torn on what to do. So I told him how I was feeling. I wanted to make him happy, but I really wanted to stay on my points and I was wanting spaghetti for dinner. I really badly wanted this weight watchers to work. I can't do that by going out. Most of the food is way over on points. So he gave in and said ok we'd go home and cook. That was a huge step for us. We have always before just given in. I'm hoping this weight watchers will prevent that from happening. Somehow in the past we have managed to pull enough money out of our asses to go out to eat when we wanted to most of the time despite our tight budget. So I figure if we can pull that money out to go out to eat we can pull that money out to pay for weight watchers and then maybe the weight watchers will save us money cause we wont be eatting out as much. Just a thought. LOL.
Anyways, so last nights dinner was soooo good. I had extra helpings. I felt good afterwards cause I wasn't stuffed but satisfied enough that I was hungry after. And the food wasn't really bad. It was about as healthy as you can make spaghetti. lol. But I ended up using some of my weekly allowance points cause I had extra helpings. Which I know its what they are there for, but I dont want to use them if I can avoid it. So, I was feeling a little guilty and after we cleaned up after dinner and kids did their chores I decided I wanted to go for a walk. I didn't know how far I could make it but I didn't want to just walk around the yard. That wouldn't do anything. At least not enough for me at that moment. So, we all walked and walked and walked. Hubby kept suggesting we go back cause I usually cant make it very far and he didnt want to have to walk back and get the car for me. lol.
But i just kept going. I walked to the duck pond, a block from our house, then around the pond (1/2 mile) then took the long way through the neighborhood back home. It toko about 45 minutes but it seemed like we walked a lot further. I was so proud and hubby was shocked and proud. Even got praise from my friend and Weight watchers coach. lol. (I named her my ww coach).
I really badly wanted to walk this morning too but kids got lessons to do. I can't leave them alone in house too long theyd fight. Im gonna walk after lunch though if it dont rain. And I plan to walk every evening that it dont rain. We go to the OKC Zoo the middleish part of April and last year I sucked. I couldn't make it very far and felt horrible. The kids wanted to see more but I couldn't make it to the back. So i told them this year we would go to the back first. But I need to be able to walk it for them. I need to! For them and for me!
I'm just stressing right now over what I'm gonna eat when were there. All they have is crap.

weight watchers

Well, I am on the first FULL week of weight watchers. Its is a bit of a struggle. Yesturday was my anniversary (8 years) and we had spaghetti planned for dinner. We all love homemade spaghetti. We make it a bit different. We use whole wheat noodles and tomato sauce(not store bought spaghetti sauce) and season it our selves. Well, I was a bit hungry so I ate extra. I gave my self the points for it too. I felt good and bad after I ate. I felt full. The first time in a few days and upset at the same time cause I had more than 1 serving. And we still had dessert. Which was an angel food cake with whipped cream and strawberries. I hadn't worked out as much as I'd hoped during the day cause the boys and slept in so our day was off. Well, after dinner I was mad at myself and decided instead of my little stroll around the yard I was gonna go for a walk around the neighborhood. Didn't figure I'd get very far. Never have before. But I was determined. I was hurting, walking funny, breathing was labored but I pushed through. I said fuck it and just did it. I walked at least a mile. We all walked to the duck pond, (a block form my house) around the duck pond (1/2 mile by it self) then the long way home around a few streets. About 45 minutes of walking. I was shocked and so was hubby. He kept saying we should stop cause I usually cant make it that far and he would probably have to go home and get the car if I kept going. I didn't stop. I just kept going along. I felt great afterwards. No cramping or pain yet! After we got home hubby and I even played on the PS3 for a bit on sports champions. Worked my arms out! Hell Yeah!
I am on a high right now. I really just want this to work. So badly!

Weight Watchers

I started weight watchers last week. This is only day 3. And it is the beginning of a new week. I did pretty well so far. I am staying under my points. I am exercising a little. I can't do much right now. I don't think I'm pushing myself as much as I can right now though. I have back problems and am worried about that. Also I have a bad knee and dont want the knee cap popping out on me. But I need to move past those issues and just do it. Im not gonna just waste $40 a month and not do the program 100%.

The weekend

This weekend went pretty well. We were busy. Saturday we went to birthday party. It was fishing at the local park. The boys love to fish. Then the birthday boy wanted to sleep over. So he came home with us. We decided to grill that evening. And invited some friends over to join us. Even invited a friend I hadn't talked to or seen in months. And just started talking to the day before. It was a nice visit. The kids all had fun, especially when they got to play spot light.
Sunday we all ate breakfast together, rode bikes a little, went to the museum, then came home. I had my oldest take down the Christmas lights hubby keeps saying he's gonna take down. Then hubby did some maintenance work on out friends car. By then we were all pretty tired and just went out to dinner.
On the way home we had a ground wire issue on my car. Couldnt figure out how to fix it. Hubby is still working on it.
Then the kids and I watched part of Nemo before heading off to bed.

It was a really good weekend!

Trampoline fun

I got a wild hair today and decided to get on our trampoline we've had for like 3 years or so. I have never attmepted it cause of my size and my my muscles like to cramp when I try anything physical. Of course I had to act silly while doing it.

I am a strong woman!

I believe I can fly. LOL

Im a jumpin...

Dork

Ok that didnt last long.







Im done

But had fun doing it! I'm gonna make a goal to do this more often.

A lost friend

I heard from an old friend today. It was a shock. I had emailed her but didn't really expect a response. Several months back , probably at least 6 now, I was really, really depressed. The worst I had ever been. I didn't know why. I couldn't figur it out. I was in a low dark place. Well, I asked my friend for some time. I needed to be left alone for a while. She kept pushing and pushing. So, since I was so low I told her how I felt about everything lately. Even her. See there were a lot of little things about her that we really getting on my nerves. And as depressed as I was getting they were really, really bothering me. I know if she just backed off a bit and let me have some time I would work through it and we would be fine. She wouldn't. So, I said some mean hurtful things and she backed off. I haven't spoken to her in a while. Now I am feeling much better. Turns out a lot of my depression is a vitamin deficincy. A few simple missing vitamins does wonders for me. So, now that I have worked through everything I emailed her and appologized and said I hoped her the kids were doing well. And left it at that. She responded. I was shocked. Happy but shocked. I hope we start off slow and re build what is broken. But those are just hopes. We'll see how it goes. :)

My life

I love my life...most of the time.
I have a wonderful hubby and 2 great kids. They are my whole world and they take up all my time. Which is cool. But sometimes I get lonely. I have no friends to talk to, share things with, or get advice from. Just my blogs and facebook, but I dont really know a lot of those people well enough. Wish I had more sometimes.

chiropractor

I LOVE my chiropractor! He is amazing! I was hurting so bad from our queen chiropractor bed that we had for the last month. It was the most horrible bed immaginable. I would have slept on the floor better than I slept on that bed. So, finally after my back was thrown out the last time, which was the worst we got a new bed. So, much better. Between the bed, iceing my back and heating my back it got better. Mostly. But my right hip just wouldnt go back in place and heal on its own. So, this evening i finally broke down and went to see my chiropractor. Within minutes I was back in. And pain was almost instantly gone. I still need to ice my hip a little but its much better. I hope I can sleep good tonight. I should since my hip is back in and i am soooo tired from getting up so early this morning.

So tired

I am just so tired. I an issue last night an posted to a homeschooling group for advice. Got some advice. But not what I wanted to hear.
Basically they said my rewards system wasn't working. Great. Finally I listened. I don't know what to do. The system it self it fine. It's just not working for both kids.
I just don't know what to do with my oldest sometimes or how to connect with him.
I change lessons cause of him. I change rewards and consequences cause of him.
He thinks he rules the house.
He thinks he can talk to his brother how he wants and boss him around.
He thinks he can do what he wants when he wants.
I just dont know what to do.
I'm so frustrated.
I just want to do the right thing. But what it is?

Today3/8/11

Its been a really long day. I have been stressed and grouchy. Yelling a bit too. Little things getting on my nerves. I think I am exausted. I have been taking some Acai pills with green tea. They are giving me the energy, well drive to do more in the day but in the evening I am exausted. I feel like I could crash by 7 sometimes but I can't. I still have lessons and chores to assign for the next day. Also checking chores and making sure the kids do what they need to do in the evening. Baths, floors picked up, teeth brushed, etc. All while my dear hubby sits on his ass playing his playstation! I really want him to have to relax, but I need time too. Just because I homeschool the boys all day doesn't mean I don't need help with them in the evenings.
I wish men would get it sometimes.
Well, back to it I go.
Gotta get up super early so kids can go to dentist at 7:20 AM

My back

I have been having back problems for years. I have a habit throwing disk. It is very painful. I didn't know what it was until a year ago when I started going to see a chiropractor. My body was all kinds of out of wack. It has been helpful and expensive going to see him. Sometimes I have to wait until its realy bad before I can afford to go.
Several months back our Cali King bed finally worn out after about 5 years. We bought it used for $75 and it lasted 5 years. Great deal. Well, it started hurting my back and I was making frequent trips to the chiropractor cause of it. Finally we did some rearranging in the house. My oldest son had a bunk bed and youngest a captains bed. My oldest was wanting a new big boy bed since he turned was turning 13. So we did a little swapping for a few months. We took down his bunk bed and put it in the garage. We gave him our top mattress to our Cali King and kept our box springs. Then took his bunk bed mattresses and used them. He was thrilled to have such a big bed even though it was on the floor. And it was only temporary. When income tax finally came we did some switching again. The bunk bed went into our younger sons room. He was over joyed cause he could one bed just for all his stuffed animals. lol. The captains bed went to our oldest and we got a queen size bed with frame and headboard for $150. We thought we could go from a Cali King to a Queen no problem. Ha. We were wrong. That bed was horrible. I hated that bed with a passion. We've had it about a month and I have gotten maybe 2 good nights sleep the whole time. That bed was crowded and killed my back. I had to sleep sitting up with my back off the bed or have pillows under my back so my back wouldn't be on the bed. Saturday night was the last straw. I tried so hard to make that bed work cause hubby picked it out. I slept on his side of the bed for a change and woke up about 4:30 in so much pain I couldn't move. It was the worst ever. I told him I would never sleep on that bed again! EVER! I went to the loveseat in the family room and got a few hours sleep there. The next day we were discussing what to do with the bed situation. We were just gonna sell it when I said why don't we give it to John(our oldest). He wanted a bigger big since he's getting older(now 13). Then we can sell the captains bed. Hubby agreed it was a great idea. So we posted the bed on craigslist and was looking just looking on craigslist to see what we could find for a King size bed in our price range. We got lucky! We found a King size bed with mattress topper for $50! So, hubby and friend went and picked it up in truck. We put the queen in John's room and the king in ours. We slept on it last night and it was amazing! So different than the queen. My back is still sore and I can't really sleep on my back too long until the disks stop swelling, but I got so much sleep! And my son loved his queen bed too. We're all happy! Maybe my back will be happy enough to stop hurting to I don't have to go see the chiropractor. It costs $45 everytime and he spends 5 minutes and pops me all back in.

My first post here

This blog is just for me. I might rank, complain or rejoice on here. I might post about my life, sex, husband, kids, family etc. This blog is for me to have a place to get it all out and not be judged or criticized. Anyone is welcome to comment, make suggestions or share their own experiences. Please do not post nasty comments about what I say. Sometimes I say things out of anger. Some things I don't mean what I say. Thank you.