Weight loss

I have changed my weight in day cause Saturday morning just aren't working anymore. To much can happen on Friday nights to mess up the weight in. So I have had my first Friday weight in. And I am proud of it! I have lost 1.8 pounds this week. Woo Hoo!
Grand total since starting the end of March is.........20.3 pounds and about 17 inches!!!

If I lose 1.3 pounds by next Friday I will hit my goal for the month!

I am so proud to announce my weight as of today is 283.3...I know that is a high number and to some people they would be in shock and imbarressed and even disgusted by me. But I am proud! I am proud cause a few months ago I started out at 304 pounds! So the fact that I have lost over 20 pounds so far is amazing to me. I wasn't ever able to do it before. Partly cause of me and partly cause of lack of knowledge. I am imbarressed that due to lack of kowledge and will power I allowed myself to get that big. That is the only thing I am imbarressed about.
I may still look disgusting to people but I don't care. Its my body. And they don't have to look. My kids love me and my husband still finds me attractive and loves me so thats all that matters.

The only down side to the weight loss right now is am a bit extra jiggly. You can tell where the fat is leaving my bosy. A little in my waist, my upper arms are really jiggly, some under my arms is jiggly and my ass shakes like jello now. It didn't use to do that. My legs are still pretty solid though. Not much out of the calfs or thighs yet. My face is thinner though. And I look younger(thats a plus) I'm not old but for a woman to look young is awesome! LOL.

Anyways...
My goal for next month is to weight 278 (or less)
And my goal by my birthday, which is August 19th, is to weight 275. I believe its possible. That's only 1 pound a week. As long as I get close to that goal I will be happy.

dinner

I tried a new recipe tonight.Creamy Marsala Meatballs & pasta with steamed veggies. It came out really nice. It smelled really good. But I had to send hubby an errand up to Walmart. Which is like 2 minutes away. He was just gonna meet someone there to pick up an item I was purchasing from Sillbookoo. Well, just as the person shows theres an asccident right in front of him. So, he stays, helps out and waits to give the cops his info. Such a good guy!
But dinner didn't survive. After being reheated a few times its done for.

Little disappointed.

Litha

Today I spent the day with my family, took the boys to Braums, visited my favorite Pagan shop, kids made sun catchers, I made No-Bake Fairy cakes and did a family Litha Ritual.
It was really nice.
It wasthe first family ritual I've done in a while. We always have a family alter up and I always have a personal one in my room. I have tried family rituals before but the kids were younger and not as into it. But this time they payed attention, did what they were told, interacted when needed and really enjoyed themselves. Even my youngest said he really, really liked it and wanted to do more. He seems like its something he really connects with. But I did notice when we tried to do the ritual in the family room where the family alter is it didn't feel right. There was way to much energy in there and didn't feel calm enough. So we did the ritual in my room where my personal atler is. It felt slightly cramped, but a lot better.
Now it just makes me want to set up a place to do family rituals where it feels right. I hope I will be doing this again. Its been too long.

Today 6/20/11

I have stopped paying for the weight watchers program this month. I haven't stopped the program. But I never really looked at it as a program. I never looked at it as a diet either. Its a life style. As long as I eat right, portion my food and exercise i'm good.
I haven't been doing that though. I lost .6 then gained .2. I didn't even weight in Saturday cause I had such a bad week and couldn't work out I didn't want to see a number going up. I havealso changed my weight in day. It was Saturday mornings, but sometimes hubby likes to have pizza Friday nights and wants to order one. That is soooo not good for me. And Friday night feels like a I don't wanna cook kinda night. So instead of sabtaging my self Friday night and weighting in Saturday I am just gonna weight in Friday mornings. Before the weekend cookouts and such. Hopefully this will work. We'll see Friday when I weight in. LOL.
I am at least working out this week, so ar. I did a great workout today. 20 minutes and I was sweating my ass off. It was amazing.
I'm also eatting fruit this week. So hopefully my body will react well.
Being in a inbetween size clothes really sucks. I can get into an 18 in capris but some brands are a little snug. Plus I still have my hips and thighs. My waist has gone down and so has my upper body. Boobs are still good. They have gone down a bit but they won't go down too much. I have always had big boobs. My shirt size has dropped but only being down 1 size in capris I don't wanna go out and buy new ones yet.
Losing weight has its advntages and disadvantages.

A simple womans day book

Outside my window...
Its dark. Its pretty late too.

I am thinking...
I should have been relaxing and windng down for bed long before now. I hope I can sleep tonight.

I am thankful...
I was able to see the chiropractor last week and get aligned. I soooo needed it.

Adventures in homeschooling...
I gave the kids the week off to relax and so I could work on lessons. They needed a little revamping. I just wish I had a book & DVD bak that I loaned out. It would be useful with te lesson planning.

New creations from the kitchen...
I made a chicken n dumplings in the crockpot tonight. I used the crockpot recipe and my own combined and it actually came out really, really good. Everyone LOVED it!

I am going...
To bed soon

I am reading...
I am still reading the last of the vamp academy series book. I just can't stop long enough to get any good reading time in.

I am hoping...
I have a good week. I am able to exercise everyday and lose some weight this week, even 1 pound would be wondeful!

Around my house...
Hubby is snoozing. He has to work in the morning. Youngest is also in bed. He has a strick 9:30 bed time during the week. School or not. And eldest is playing a video game in his room. If I stay up, so does he. I like the company.

One of my favorite things...
Staying up after everyones gone to bed. Its so quiet.

A few plans for the rest of the week...
Finish the lessons. Hopefully be able to plan for a yard sale this weekend. Exercise. Lose some weight. Sleep well. Have patience. Relax. Be happy. And get my friend to answer my texts so I can get my book and DVD back!

OMG moment

I had an OMG moment today. I have spent years trying not to be like anyone on my mom's side of the family.
(Real quick version of my childhood-Parents split up when I was almost 6, mom was murdered when I was 6, dad tried to raise but didn't know how & was an alcoholic so I was send to live with my moms youngest sister & her family. Her 2 boys mulested me & she beat any chance she got, as well as put me down & called me names. Then I was sent to live with my moms other sister & her husband raped me for months. At the age of 15 I went back to live with my dad & pretty much took care of myself from then on.)
So, anyways, I have been fighting for years and years not to repeat the learned behavior from my mom's side of the family. It has been a hige struggle and still is. But, today I realized its not only my mom's side of the family but my dad as well. I act just like him. Growing up I always wanted to be like him, but now seeing myself act like him I am very upset with myself. I have a quick temper. I yell first then appoligize. OMG, my dad does the same thing. This is NOT something I was to do. Not a way I want to act. I can't believe I didn't see that before.
I hope I have the strenght to change this!

A simple womans day book

Outside My Window:
It sure looks Hot.

I am thinking:
I am planning out my day in my head

I am thankful for:
My family

Adventures in Homeschooling:
The boys are learning about France this week. They are counting to 10 in French & building the Effiel Tower.

New Creations from the Kitchen:
I have been on a eggs & bacon(turkey bacon) kick lately and don't know why.
For lunchthe boys ate homemade whole wheat bagel pizzas, with tomato sauce, turkey pepperoni & grated cheese.
For Dinner were having Tex Mex Casserole. It's a yummy meal I found on Philly Cooking Creams site using the newish product "Philly Cooking Creams". They are soooooo yummy!

I am creating:
I have a little list of things to create. A sign for the dish washer that says if the dishes are clean or dirty(scrapbook style of course), a sign over the kids doors with their names in big scrapbookish letters, and I am working on the idea ofa mini office in the kids rooms above their desks so they can have more work space.
http://familyfun.go.com/crafts/homework-central-787551/

I am going:
To the grocery store today

I am reading:
Still trying to finish the last of the Vamp academy books

I am hoping:
That we will be ok finacially

Around my house:
Kids finished their after lunch chores and are back to lessons

A few plans for the rest of the week:
work out every day for the rest of the week, get some reading time in, and stay relaxed

Feelin better

Well, I have been feeling a lot better this week. I hope it continues.
The kids asked if they could have the week off "school" and I gave in. But next week were back to it.
I lost .4 this week. Not too bad considering I didn't the best I could have. But at least its a loss.
Yeah! I am still losing. Wish it would pick back up though. I liked lossing a whole pound or 2. Less than half a pound is still a loss but it takes a few weeks to build up to a pound. Makes it more frustrating.

Anyways, lots to do. Busy, busy weekend.