Family Time

Spent the day with my family. I am always with my family but we had an outing. We ate lunch at Arby's for $10(i has coupons for .64 cent roast beef sandwiches), then we drove to Duncan and spent the day in Duncan. It was a blast. We found 2 free admission museums. Toured them and drover around checking out Duncan. We all had a great time. I love spending time with my family. Its good that I can still do that considering my boys are 9 & 13 and will eventually not wanna spend time with me or their daddy.

weight loss progress

Well, I have fallen off track...agian. I gain .4 pounds the last 2 weeks. Partly me and partly cause I wasn't feeling well. My fault cause I made bad choices. When I'm weak I don't make good choices.
I am gonna work really hard to get back on track this week. I don't know if I'll hit my goal of weighting 278 by the end of the month but I'm gonna try to get as close as possible. I'm staying positive!

Life Update

I haven't had a chance to post since I was in a mood. But, life has improved again. We do have someone who actually cares. We were able to get a 2003 expedition with about 110,000 miles. In good condition. We love it. Its big, but sooooo nice. Didnt think I'd like something that big and didn't think I could drive it very well. But its wonderful so far. Were gonna making payments on it for about 18 months.
The goddess really does look out for us.

Blessed Be!

Life Sucks

I dont give a flying fuck anymore! No one cares about me or my family why should I care about anyone or anything. I am soooo tired of being nice and trying to be positive when life fucking sucks. The only good thing is that I have a loving husband and kids. The world sucks! I hate people! No one care about anyone anymore.
Why can't we have one fucking good thing happen for us? Why? No one can answer that cause noone gives a flying fuck! Well I'm sick and fucking tired of caring. I'm sick and fucking tired of trying. Fuck everyone!

Life can really suck sometimes

I haven't been sleeping well. Started takin Melatonin. Its ok. But I have a stiff neck and now my lower back is hurting. Last night I was having pains in my hips and knee. Stayed up unil 2am cause I couldnt get sleepy. Then slept until nearly 11am this morning. Not a great start to the day.
On top of that we have a huge electric bill $173 for this month. Paying that is really putting a strain on us. I had to carefully plan the menu and spend as little as possible on groceries for the week cause wonderful DHS decided to fuck with the food stamps and we wont get ours until the 10th of each month now.
And now our fucking piece of shit car started acting up. Hubby thought it was the injector or a plug fouling out. But now after talking to someone at work he thinks its the piston rings (?) or something like that, but basically the damn engine is shot! GREAT! Another fucking vehicle that only lasted 6 fuckin months before blowin up! How many more times are we gonna have to get vehicles that do this?
Hubby is trying to get financed or a loan. But we don't have the best credit. And no money for a down. This fucking sucks!

I don't know how much more I can take!!!

new clothes

My wonderful hubby bought me a new outfit today cause my clothes aren't fitting anymore. I have been fighting him on it for while and finally gave in. I got a regular outfit and 2 new items to sleep in. A silky gown that makes me appear slimmer and a shorts and tank top set as well. They are so comfortable. And it feels amazing to have some capris that aren't fallin off me or a shirt that swallows me. Yea!
Of course he made me model for the camera. But this is the only outfit I will post pics of. LOL. The others are bedroom attire. He he he.

weekly weight in

Well, I weighted in this morning and have lost 3.7 pounds!!! OMG!
Grand total of 24.2 so far! I am sooooo excited about it! just can't believe it!
I love it!

But at the same time can't be overly excited around one friend. Which sucks. See she did the WW program several years before when she was still married and didn't lose much and had no support from her husband. She started the WW program around Christmas (2010) and then her family(her mom,dad, sister & brother-in-law) joined right after the new year. I didn't know she was doing the program at first. Well, her family has been losing weight big time. They didn't have a whole lot to lose but her brother in law has lost abut 50 pounds so far and the rest of her family is almost to goal weight. Well, I started looking into WW around March. I tried a meeting and so didn't like the person running it. But was looking into the online. So I asked my friend about it and thats when she told me was doing the program again. So, she answered a lot of questions for me and I ended up signing up. I've been doing really well. Changed our diet, started exercising, etc.
Well, about a month or so ago I realized I was doing all the work myself and only using the online tool to count my points. Not much else. And didn't want to pay $40 a month for that. So I stopped paying it but continued the lifestyle. It was rough at first but its so working without paying $40 a month. Anyways, I watch what I eat and cook most of our meals at home. I also exercise 2-3 times a week. Not for too long, about 15-20 average. an't handle too much right now.
Well, my friend started going to the gym and then a few weeks ago started going to zumba classes. She says shes workin her butt off. And she says she barely eats.
But she has barly lost 7 pounds since she started back in December. She thinks she has something wrong with her and wants to see a doctor. But I think the exercise shes doing isn't enough. (or too much) If her body is use to it, its not helping much, except to maintain.
And her eatting habits aren't great. Eatting a little of something that isn't great for you is fine, on occassion, not daily. And her diet sodas dont help.
But everytime I try to tell her I lost weight she doen't seem that happy. She seems kinda pissy. I know shes frustrated by how little shes lost, and I have given her support even when she lost .2 (been there) but I've lost 24 pounds. Thats huge for me. Never ever happened before. Shouldn't she as a "friend" be happy for me? Why should I have to hold down my excitment and not share my good news cause it will upset her. Its not fair for either of us. I wish I could help her understand why she hasn't lost. I wish I could help her see what she's eattin but she just won't hear it. She's been doing the WW program longer than I have and knows more.
Whats the right thing to do?

Anyways, I have a goal of weighting 275 by my birthday(August 19th), which is 10% of my body weight from start (30lbs).

Its possible if I keep with it!